Sometimes I create to destroy
To show my exes how well I do without them
Not that they see, and not that I want them keeping tabs on me
More often, I create to give
To share with others what I’ve learned from living
New Year’s was a holiday I repeatedly did wrong
Galavanting around town wearing the wrong clothes
Cheap sparkly heels and ripped panty hose
Spent the night with the wrong guys
Couldn’t feel small dicks between my thighs
Drank liquor that was too strong
Stayed out far too long
The morning after felt sober and nauseous
How can I be such a worrywort yet not at all cautious
Tried to commune with nature in the backyard
The deer snorted at me and stomped their hooves hard
I took a bath and wished it could wash away what can’t be seen
Sexually transmitted disease, loneliness and low self-esteem
Some years I did some things right
Ate a nourishing meal and went to bed at a reasonable hour last night
Though I am working today instead of napping and brunching like I’m high class
That’s ok- there are worse ways to spend New Years Day.
I find peace in knowing that I won’t make the same mistakes again, after having made the same mistakes again and again.
Today is an opportunity to treat myself like a friend
The new year stretches before me like an unfurled roll of fresh toilet paper
May I commit every moment to the simple life, instead of my usual wild caper