I struggle with perseverating on traumas both ancient and recent.
I know my mind is searching for a way to protect me, though in doing so it binds me tightly to the experiences that seem to scald me.
I used to want to sever my ties to the subjects I perseverated on, to ablate the neurons in my brain that remembered the most painful moments and thought the most disturbing ideas.
Now I know that every challenging experience holds within it a gift, the lotus seed within the mud.
I invite you to try this: recall a traumatic memory, and ask yourself what lesson can be gleaned from it.
For example, in remembering the times my body has been violated, may I be reminded that I am worthy of respect and healthy boundaries.
In linking trauma to sacred life lessons, you will transform the uncomfortable memory into a powerful tool to heal yourself.
The traumatic memory may remain searing lifelong, however you will hold the gift in the palm of your hand and therefore be able to use it to create the life you want, starting with feeling better right here, right now.
When I do this I feel peaceful, hopeful, and at ease.
May you always find the gifts you need to soothe your heart, mind, body, and spirit.