Adverse Childhood Experiences
Most of us have had adverse childhood experiences
Some of us more than others-
Traumatic experiences with catastrophic consequences which ripple out from our core to the edges of existence
Some of us have lived a life of consistent resistance
We were struggling, fighting uphill battles
When we should have felt carefree, playing with rattles
Experiences so awful and early
That rigid prison bars were imposed around our developing minds and bodies
Restricting our growth
I’m not writing an excuse for my shortcomings
I’m fueling my fire to heal humanity
Enough already with the insanity
Trauma tangles our DNA, the epigenetics way
Turning off certain genes and turning on others,
But we can be better than our fathers and mothers
We don’t have to pass it on
We can heal ourselves
Do something each day to heal yourself, your body will guide you in what to do-
quality sleep and fresh food to eat
energy healing visualization, repeating positive affirmations
I won’t ever be the person I might have been had I not had all those adverse childhood experiences- every form of abuse and neglect
raised by people who were unwell, making my childhood a living hell
However, because I am a wounded warrior, I have a burning desire to share my fire, let my inner glow light the way for others to know that a better life is possible
You are your own healer.
There is so much to fear and worry about.
So much to feel sad and angry about.
I spend a great deal of time and energy worrying what others think of me.
This is likely because of the explosive rage inflicted upon me whenever I displeased others while I was growing up.
But they were displeased to begin with.
Their happiness was never my responsibility
And now I feel like everybody’s happiness is my responsibility
But it is not
I am only responsible for myself
It is enough to mind my own mind- check in with my thoughts without worrying about what everyone else is thinking all the time.
This is a practice, and practicing is enough.
Constant dripping of water hollows out a stone.
My pain is the stone, and my healing is the water.
Like water, I do not stop when I encounter an obstacle, I keep flowing. I heard that all rivers flow to the ocean.
Your healing is natural, it is part of the universal life force.
But you can help it along- how you treat yourself is the most important action you can take.
Oh Great Spirit, may I stay on this healing path.
I have taken many exams, however healing from my ACEs is the most important test I want to ace.
Thank you to all the healers, all the hard-working professionals who help raise awareness about ACEs, help prevent trauma, and help blaze the trail of recovery.